Why am i so stupid? Why can't i resist to a food?? I counted calories and played dance revolution (to burn my calories) yesterday and today. And in the evening i couldn't say no to cooked by me mushed potato with meatballs. Also my M. brought home a giant chocolate and 3 two litters bottles of diet pepsi, i assuming to please me. And dame it, i choose to eat all that, and a lot i should admit. I'd decided to make a little party of my own while eating all that delicious stuff and watching Harry Potter and the Chamber of secrets. And now i've got a stomach ache thanks to my cleverness!! Will i ever be able to control myself?? Should i just give up till new year comes and then start? I mean i will be cooking for New Years party anyway..and of course i suppose i won't say no to it.
I have to beat my self!! Because its the predestination of my life! And i have to succeed on this. Otherwise whats the point, right? I have to get rid of my strongest addiction of my life -food!!! Its a battle field. And im loosing.. Yet i don't like when such a thing as loss happening!
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